Friday, October 13, 2017

Weinstein's Drive was Retribution, not Power

With the media frenzy on Harvey Weinstein over the past eight days, I started to dig deeper into why he lived this destructive pattern of demolishing women & ball busting deals. To be a serial harasser and abuser means his focus wasn't power nor a mental illness but based on a past life retribution. He had to destroy all the women (or symbol of) he believed destroyed him previously.

Now call me odd but take into account at least two sites I've read, both confirm strong characteristics of what Mr W shows signs of. Since he's 
Virgo South Node & Pisces North Node (also here - I love this astrologer but the site may close shortly so download that page), the other shoe drops. Why would someone with so many achievements initiate such horrific, continuous attacks against women. He's not an idiot so he knows his actions were a ticking time bomb, and he can only threaten media to shut down negative articles for so long. His subconscious knows he'll get caught out...and he was. And it blew spectacularly in his face. It may take him a while to get down from his egomaniac high to realize exactly what he's done, especially with his double birdie photo yesterday (still disillusioned that he is G-d and how dare humans defy him). He believes it's an 'industry' thing and everyone does it...he just wanted to do it bigger and more forcefully. 

His South Node Anger Was His Ammunition & Engine

Before we reincarnate, we assess our past lives and create challenges for our next life to learn and evolve. Some of us achieve these with stunning, positive results. Others are livid with the south node life, which doesn't give the north node breathing room to fulfill this correct life path destiny. 

In this case, Harvey shows classic combos of south node traits that he refused to deal with productively, instead using this life as a platform to bulldoze with one intention: revenge.

1. His past life was controlled through stifling, slavery type belittlement & unappreciated structure. Hence why he broke every ethic book rule in this life, regardless of the costs to him and others. 
2. He created destructive patterns, unconsciously aware they were wrong but consciously, he couldn't stop his south node from getting vengeance i.e. creating his own version of freedom through initiated demolition on others.
3. He had a past life in the acting industry but was an underdog. This life, he was screaming for everyone to know he was boss. Maybe an original desire to be an actor wasn't on the cards, but he certainly set out to control the industry, unfortunately with abuse i.e. the bullied becomes the bully.
4. He demanded respect through abusing his industry power, maybe towards the same women who had abused him in a past life. We make a point to connect with people in our past lives, to fulfill a karmic (good or bad) duty. Instead of him taking the high road by not circling an 'abuse them back' pattern, he couldn't stop himself so initiated unstoppable, repetitive payback. 
5. His past life states he had sexual problems, deprived of intimacy or battered. Which makes sense in this life; he wanted to stamp on them as they'd stamped on or ignored him previously. 
6. Being a clever strategist, he picked at everything, but was so involved in fixing everyone as projects he lost perspective. His strategy turned from producing, to controlling and annihilating.

If you believe the above is absolute baloney, check your own North/South node and then see your patterns, validating my post. 

Where Harvey Goes From Here Is A New Path 180

He catastrophically failed to address past life limitations and deal with this life-challenge correctly (reinforcing, the life Harvey created). The past was too much of a thorn, resulting in his trailblazing payback actions. How he moves forward now is personally hand writing a letter to every single woman he damaged and not publicize this, or no one would believe his remorseful, apologetic intent. A return to the big or small screen industry will never suffice, regardless of the stragglers that half heartedly give him a shoulder. Americans love the this case, no one trusts him as he created a role and acted it out until it exploded in his face. The double rejection of a 'revival' campaign will result in his suicide. A movie or book about him? If anyone dared sign a contract with him, they'd never work in Tinseltown or publishing again.

He should permanently veer out the limelight and pursue more meaningful roles - helping abused kids with creative education, being the engine behind the voice of battered individuals, the brains behind the scenes in the art arena (the silent force that no one ever sees). He can't have the spotlight any more because he self destroyed that privilege. He must help others with humanitarian feats, feats that will also heal him while using his brain for good. 

If he doesn't venture into North Node Pisces, his next life will be a repetitive challenge of this, with a higher wall to climb. But the attackers will have multiplied. Because life does go full circle. 

NB: Any typos or grammatical errors, don't be a nitpicker. Also read all the James Van Praagh books - they answer a tremendous amount of Q&A's related to this post.

Monday, September 4, 2017

I've Einstein Syndrome - Who Knew?

It's a bit of a long post since there are whodunnits, twists, turns and very Cluedo type:

I didn't start speaking until I was after four years old, no later than five. Mum said I didn't 'bother speaking,' not I 'couldn't speak.' Quite apt for me! My parents sent me to elocution classes to encourage me to speak. Mum and dad thought I may have hearing problems but I didn't. I just didn't want to talk because I have verbal dyslexia: letters came out back to front, words were in the wrong order and everyone laughed at me. So I thought, bugger them, I'll just not talk if they don't want to understand what I'm saying. I wasn't upset or disturbed - I was more judgemental of their limitations. During elocution, I had a breakthrough and that's where the verbal diarrhea unleashed...and it's not stopped since, including the profanities. I really do love swearing - it's completely misunderstood and underrated.

The reason for my Einstein Syndrome (ES) is because my brain is going too fast for my mouth to express into words. I'm a crap handwriter for the same reason - I write like a permanently drunk spider's shat on paper. Everything is too slow for my brain and it drives me potty sometimes! So when I was little, not only did I have this verbal dyslexia but the non dyslexia sentences were injected with synesthesia, causing more ridicule from others. I simply decided not to talk.

Only 14% of females have ES. People with this 'affliction' have similar traits. Here are a few I'm spot on with: stubborn, social disinterest, analytical and forever curious (PC way of saying 'demanding and exhausting'), exceptionally intelligent and bright, strong willed temperament - marching to the beat of their own drum and frustrated with restrictions (school and life) believing it stifles creativity and freedom of expression. That last one is magic: EVERY single time at school when a teacher asked the kids a question, I was always told my answer was wrong. No, the teachers limited their brain, refusing to let me explain that every question had two split answers. I was in the 1% that saw this alternative answer but was shot down before I could provide my theory. School drove me nuts so I stopped putting my hand up to answer.

What I'm not on par with is that parents of ES kids are in an analytical field (maths, accounting, engineering, physics and music) with post grad degrees. Also ES kids are additionally strong in maths (I was beyond crap), musical (yes but not good), and great at doing puzzles (reasonably OK but I get irritated - I need answers). ES kids have extremely good memories - only for random specifics I care about but not a consistent pattern. Now onto the gritty, Cluedo stuff:

Related But Not Related Topic 

In the 16Personalities - I have ENTJ and this is rare for women - only 1.5% of the global female population have this. I've also been seeing symbols on my foggy glass kitchen table. The past few months, the words and numbers have been changing (so if you break into my home to check the table, you'll not understand the codes). Last week I finally cracked the sequence and knew who I was in a past life a few hundred years ago. The name came into my head, randomly, and that same evening in the supermarket, I looked up and saw the same name on the shelf. I know when I'm getting a sign versus what you would call coincidence - I'm getting to be good at seeing them. I researched obsessively and saw incredible, unusual characteristics between us. Even specific, uncommon words about this person are words people have described me as. This person was Leo North Node while I'm Leo South Node and Aquarius North Node, so this individual has handed me a massive baton passing task for disastrous antics they/I caused...that I need to address. I wanted to know who I was, not because of glory, but to see exactly what I'd achieved and what I'd botched up on - so I could fix it in this life.

Today, I believe I also cracked the second sequence of who I was in a more recent life from the same kitchen table codes. I've been thinking about this second person recently and we, again, share highly unusual characteristics. I'll either have a dream or receive an additional non-table sign, to confirm if I'm right. If so, I now see the patterns clearly: the first person's karma was addressed in the second reincarnation. The second included same pattern flaws yet on a diluted level (this person was Aquarius North Node but missed one critical beat). I came into this life with these flaws positively reversed (well done me) but now need to fix the second person's series of errors, while combining the same good qualities and characteristics of my prior two lives: all three of us share one, huge, undisputed common thread which categorically makes sense now about why I am how I am, and why my brain works differently. I now need to use the Aquarius North Node mindset, which is a complete pain in the backside because it goes against my personality: Aries with Aries rising and full blown eccentric (the latter quite common for Aquarius in general so credit where credit's due).

Every time I revert Leo South (a familiar pattern), I jump or clap to reset myself, so I become more conscious about needing to be more Aquarius North. It's a tricky one but I'm getting there.

Either way, I'm ecstatic I've connected the dots because so much confusion in this life is now answered, it's all crystal clear and now I know exactly what I need to do and more importantly: why.

Between my nodes, ES, ENTJ, kitchen table, spirit clues/symbols and still belting through my James Van Praagh books - it's been a fascinating couple of weeks.

Finally: San Francisco is heatwave free, it's spitting rain and Muppet is taking her fourth power nap.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

This is Why We Look Rubbish in the Morning

I've been reading all of James Van Praagh's books recently because I know there are other worlds I've lived in and this one doesn't fit me well. I'm trying to understand why the heck I'm here with all of you slower folks. During last week's eclipse, I saw an astrology status by Michael Lutin regarding North Nodes. I'd never heard of these so ran a quick Google search. The quick search turned into reading up to page 10 of my North Nodes: Leo South Node and Aquarius North Node. I personally adore this one by Alice Loffredo. The other shoe finally dropped - I knew exactly why I was spending this life intertwined with conflicts, bizarre incidents and how my unusual brain was wired to deal with them. I've a brilliant brain with genius ideas - but I'm a bit too much for everyone else on this planet so there lies a situation I could never fully grasp until now. If you've read my autobiography, Living of the Irony, you know I have dreams every night. Some bring me incredible messages, spirit signs, assurances and innovations.

Which Leads To Why We Look Awful After Sleeping... 

Today, I finally realized why some of us look like a bus has slapped us sideways into a muddy field when we wake up. It's because our souls take a separate trip while our bodies shut down to sleep. Since my soul works at the speed of light, resulting in 2-3 dreams a night (every night since childhood or prior), I'm amazed I don't resemble a post-tornado-meets-avalanche when I wake up.

Think of it this way: If you believe you look pristine before you sleep and then climb Everest, imagine how disheveled you look when you reach the first peak? That's rapid soul dream one. Now imagine climbing higher against harsh weather that batters you in all directions to get to the next cliff. This is rapid soul dream two. By now you're not a pretty picture, probably eaten a few bugs and slipped in yellow snow. I'm an excessive overachiever that thinks and operates at levels so fast, I'm one of the few that climbs to the highest peak most nights (my peak is not anyone else's though). The higher the peak, the rougher the terrain but the bigger the spirit signs, ideas and messages I receive.

Which is why I sometimes wake up looking like I've been guinea pig tested on a new type of weather storm but forgot how to navigate around the system. I pound through the night at supersonic speeds, lucid matching dream three with one, or one and two, while trying to ask a mountain goat for directions through telepathy. I should bring him an apple when I see him next. He's a bit cantankerous but aren't we all, when someone repeatedly asks for directions. It's all part of my Leo meets Aquarius with my Aries (and Aries rising) eccentric personality that refuses to give me a night off, always craving more and never settling for the basics. Because I may look and act like the village idiot in your eyes, but it's a ploy to appease the rest of you. I know things you'll never know. And I know you know that.

So every night you sleep, if you wake up minus dreams, you're going to look reasonably OK. I personally prefer to aspire in looking horrific each morning. Because that means I let my soul travel on extra horse power using full throttle cylinder capacity. Something I'm extremely proud of. It'll not only ensure my inventions come to light, helping to make this world better, but each sleep gets me nearer in maneuvering my GPS Aquarius you all get the star treatment and credit. Because this time, it's all about you, not me :)