I didn't start speaking until I was after four years old, no later than five. Mum said I didn't 'bother speaking,' not I 'couldn't speak.' Quite apt for me! My parents sent me to elocution classes to encourage me to speak. Mum and dad thought I may have hearing problems but I didn't. I just didn't want to talk because I have verbal dyslexia: letters came out back to front, words were in the wrong order and everyone laughed at me. So I thought, bugger them, I'll just not talk if they don't want to understand what I'm saying. I wasn't upset or disturbed - I was more judgemental of their limitations. During elocution, I had a breakthrough and that's where the verbal diarrhea unleashed...and it's not stopped since, including the profanities. I really do love swearing - it's completely misunderstood and underrated.
The reason for my Einstein Syndrome (ES) is because my brain is going too fast for my mouth to express into words. I'm a crap handwriter for the same reason - I write like a permanently drunk spider's shat on paper. Everything is too slow for my brain and it drives me potty sometimes! So when I was little, not only did I have this verbal dyslexia but the non dyslexia sentences were injected with synesthesia, causing more ridicule from others. I simply decided not to talk.
Only 14% of females have ES. People with this 'affliction' have similar traits. Here are a few I'm spot on with: stubborn, social disinterest, analytical and forever curious (PC way of saying 'demanding and exhausting'), exceptionally intelligent and bright, strong willed temperament - marching to the beat of their own drum and frustrated with restrictions (school and life) believing it stifles creativity and freedom of expression. That last one is magic: EVERY single time at school when a teacher asked the kids a question, I was always told my answer was wrong. No, the teachers limited their brain, refusing to let me explain that every question had two split answers. I was in the 1% that saw this alternative answer but was shot down before I could provide my theory. School drove me nuts so I stopped putting my hand up to answer.
What I'm not on par with is that parents of ES kids are in an analytical field (maths, accounting, engineering, physics and music) with post grad degrees. Also ES kids are additionally strong in maths (I was beyond crap), musical (yes but not good), and great at doing puzzles (reasonably OK but I get irritated - I need answers). ES kids have extremely good memories - only for random specifics I care about but not a consistent pattern. Now onto the gritty, Cluedo stuff:
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Today, I believe I also cracked the second sequence of who I was in a more recent life from the same kitchen table codes. I've been thinking about this second person recently and we, again, share highly unusual characteristics. I'll either have a dream or receive an additional non-table sign, to confirm if I'm right. If so, I now see the patterns clearly: the first person's karma was addressed in the second reincarnation. The second included same pattern flaws yet on a diluted level (this person was Aquarius North Node but missed one critical beat). I came into this life with these flaws positively reversed (well done me) but now need to fix the second person's series of errors, while combining the same good qualities and characteristics of my prior two lives: all three of us share one, huge, undisputed common thread which categorically makes sense now about why I am how I am, and why my brain works differently. I now need to use the Aquarius North Node mindset, which is a complete pain in the backside because it goes against my personality: Aries with Aries rising and full blown eccentric (the latter quite common for Aquarius in general so credit where credit's due).
Every time I revert Leo South (a familiar pattern), I jump or clap to reset myself, so I become more conscious about needing to be more Aquarius North. It's a tricky one but I'm getting there.
Either way, I'm ecstatic I've connected the dots because so much confusion in this life is now answered, it's all crystal clear and now I know exactly what I need to do and more importantly: why.
Between my nodes, ES, ENTJ, kitchen table, spirit clues/symbols and still belting through my James Van Praagh books - it's been a fascinating couple of weeks.
Finally: San Francisco is heatwave free, it's spitting rain and Muppet is taking her fourth power nap.